Rona virus feels

Coronavirus. This pandemic has completely changed our world. It’s made people act crazier than I’ve ever seen. It’s made people act more selfish than I’ve ever seen. And quite honestly it’s made a lot of people more sad/frustrated than I’ve ever seen. My personal stance on coronavirus has been, yes it’s something I need to be careful of but I can’t let my anxieties About getting it rule my life. With everything that is going on in my life, and has happened in my life adding that is just not feasible. (Plus my toddler has decided to start licking shopping carts … so there’s that.) Otherwise I could see myself never leaving my house ever again. Do I have the million dollar answer to solving coronavirus… No, not even close. Do I hate these restrictions placed on us…absolutely!

I have been thinking a lot and processing the emotions that have come up for me with coronavirus. I keep asking myself what is so bad about coronavirus (not the actual virus itself I mean the world changes because of it). i’ve come up with a few reasons.

1. Fear, fear of the unknown, unknown origin, unknown symptomology, unknown if you have it or if you’ll pass it to another person, etc.

2. Anxiety or fear of dying or your loved ones dying because of this.

3. Grieving, the whole world is going through one massive grieving process. Grieving the loss of “normal”, the loss of seeing friends, the loss of jobs, the loss of loved ones, etc.

I don’t mean to brag or anything, but all those emotions, all those fears, all that grieving… That’s what I’ve been living in for the past several years. No, my experiences in the past has not been shaped by a pandemic… This one is totally new to me… But the feelings and emotions those are all too familiar. I’m writing this post not to solve coronavirus, not to poke the bear, not to hate on anyone. I’m writing this post so that you and I both know that we are in this together. That while the pandemic is new the emotions are not and we are all still people. Grief, anxiety, and depression all combined with restrictive upon restrictive order can cause people to do and say stupid Or hurtful things. Shaming one another or “beating” people into submission WILL NOT help. Instead we need to care for each other, support each other, respect each other. We will make this through, even though we may be battered and broken on the other side! Years from now we will be able to say, “wow the rona virus was such a crazy time”.

Advice from a weathered griever, be kind to everyone (including yourself), talk less, smile more (any hamilton fans?!), find what brings you joy and cling to it, and try to find/do things that help you remind yourself who you are! It’s so easy to get lost in the emotions. This world situation sucks but let’s try to find some good, it might be that Starbucks drink you bought, it could be seeing a family member you haven’t seen in a long time, or the cuddles from your toddler who hours earlier licked the shopping cart 🤪.